Wednesday, June 3, 2009
(: 4:52 PM_____
Hello bffl! (:
Realised I've been neglecting this blog since you told me you can't access blogs in China. Even though you mentioned you're able to crack open the curse and access blogger again, i still haven't been updating here. SO SORRY!
It doesn't mean my love for you reduced over the days/months or smth okay? Quit those wild guesses. (: I'm just a little bored in blogging. Heehee, you can see that I haven't been blogging much in my 2 other blogs! (:
Man, i really miss you!
It's June of 2009 already. Almost half of this year has been gone already. ): And most of this time, you weren't here in singapore, neither were i in china with you. Wrahh.
Mm, days recently have been a little harder to survive, yet alot easier to survive.
Harder to survive, with you in China, and i can't meet up with you! ):
Harder to survive, because of the many problems and troubles i faced, and i had to face them alone. ):
Harder to survive, because i'm already nineteen, and i could literally feel the weight of all my responsibilities and the weight of the world on my shoulders. ):
Harder to survive, because i realised that i'm not only living for myself, but also for those who loce and care for me. There mgith be people who detest me, and hates me. But i can't deny the presence of dear ones, who enver gave up on me, no matter how lowly i've sank, and how bad i've turned into. These people includes my family, and of cos, darling you. (:
And of cos, harder to surive, because of the many weird and tough challenges not only life post me with, but i set for myself. Strange, but yes.
Many times, not just once, i just feel like throwing in the white towel, and giving up. but looking back, i saw all the hardwork that i've given in, and the support that people who loves me, and peopl whom i love, gave me. I decided it's time to be strong, and just move on in life. (:
Which apparently, i did. And surive til thus far. (:
But on the lighter note, there're still subjects which makes life now easier to pass.
Basically because, i've grown. (: Contradicts with the previous paragraphs, i know. But it's because of the fact that i've grown, that i realised the many responsibilities i have to shouldered, which makes me even more determined to survive through the shitz. Bringing disappointment to myself is hellish, i wouldn't dare imagine the same disappointment i have to bring my fmaily with. It's terrible.
No more playing with affairs of heart. Yeah, maybe previous few months, i've stumbled and tripped alot of times. But from this moment onwards, definitely no more. (: And i'm definitely proud to say that. I'm glad that before university life starts for me, i'm able to start afresh, in matters of heart. I'm just plain glad. Thanks for your love and concern, which really push me to the end of this tunnel til i see the light. All regrets, all lingers, nopes, i'm throwing them to the trash. (:
And realising that at the end of the day, i've such wonderful family by me. Never forsaking, never leaving my side. I'm truly grateful for them.
Awh, and of cos, sweets like you as well! (: it's amazing how we always stay this clsoe, through all the shit happening in each other's lives respectively. I'm really glad the one responsible had placed you in my life. (: maybe a handful of my friends aren't true. Or maybe the whole bunch of them aren't true. That idk, an di wish i dont have to know. One thing for sure, i know my bffl is true. Steadfast and true, always here for me. ((:
Recently, i'm back into redcross. Joined this camp/event in hq, which is going to keep me occupied all the saturdays until 20 june.
Other than this, no more new updates bout my life. ): Cos it's all boring. Work and home, work and home. Wrahhh.
Can i go china? (:
Wenfang misses you!
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